Okay, so a lot of stuff has been going on lately, so this may take just a little while, but stick with me. So last week there was this afterparty for a school event at the brat stop (local trucker bar) and guess what, that's right you had to be 18 to get in. So while all of my friends were off having fun and getting drunk I got to stay home. Though my roommie sha nay nay, ashlee, chris and t.c. where here it just wasn't my scene, a little bit to much grass. I just wanted to have fun, and I don't need drugs or liquor to do that, but aparently I did need about 6 1/2 more months of life. So I ended up going to bed at like 11, about 3 hours before everyone decided to show up at the apartment, so I slept right through it. Fun, fun right, esspecially after I got to see all the crazy pictures on facebook, and here the wild stories from lauren and darcy. I just got a little mad because there is nothing I could do about it.

Then, I went home with Lauren for a night, and we went out with her parents. Well, I kept them from going to their local bar because I'm not 18, as well as, made her parents a little uncomfortable at the bar we did end up at because they were afraid someone was going to say something. It wasn't like they were carding, I wasn't drinking, and I just don't know. I don't really look like I'm underage, I mean I get shocked looks when people find out, so I guess that's a good thing. But it still made me feel kinda shitty, not to mention then I started to get nausous, and couldn't eat dinner which made me feel like a bad guest. I just can't win, though lunch the next day was delicious, and I got to see some pretty neat shit while I was there (Kohler WI.)

Ok so now I dyed my hair a really dark brown (almost black but not) on Sunday, and it looks totally adorable. I feel amazing about it, and aparently it shows through. I keep getting talked about, and hit on, it makes me feel great, and some of the guys are really cute. But the problem is that all of the guys are older than me...duh... and I really can't do anything about the fact that I'm still considered jailbait. I'm hoping they won't mind, esspecially since I'm not looking for anything serious, hell I'm not really looking for anything I'm doing fine by myself. But it is nice to get the attention. I know one guy is crushing on me because well he told me, the others are more subtle, but when you mention how amazing a girls hair looks with the added sexy voice and entrusion into the personal bubble it's hitting on her.

I have to say that even though I shouldn't make a move on any of the guys that's not going to stop me. I am not about to make my life harder by not doing what I want to do. I mean yes I may be legal considered a minor, but what is an adult anyway. It's someone who takes responsibility for their actions, who is able to make their own decisions, and is able to stand on their own two feet in a situation. Personally I think I'm more adult than a lot of the people I've met over 18. I can't belive that just because of a few months difference people can think so much differently about me. But I guess to most people age isn't just a number. Esspecially, when it's not 18 or older.

That's all for now, I guess it isn't a horrible amount...here's to next time.

Fee