So I finished my first year of college...all I can say is WOW! I went through so much this last year, yet I can't wait to go back. I had to go through being ridiculed, and not being able to do some exciting things, but I have a feeling that, that would've changed the good times that I did have. I love most of the people I met, and I can't wait to do it again. I'm just ready to get going with the summer. But thats about it. I did well in school, even with all of the drama I got 4 A's and a B+ so I must've been doing something right.

See ya next year...

Fee

Ok so if you need an ego boost apparently the time to get it is at the end of the school year. I have had so many guys hitting on me in the last week. I made out with one, kissed another, and am supposed to hang out with another guy tonight. Not to mention I still am getting hit on by two other new people and I'm going a little bizerk. I just I don't know what to do. I even have a guy who I like and who likes me, yet he wants me to do shit with his best friend first because he's just gonna start college in the fall, and he hasn't done anything with a girl yet. I feel like a piece of meat, and I'm not even that hot. Sure I'm about 5'7" or 5'8" with long legs and big boobs, but I'm no moviestar. I have a bit of a stomach, chubby arms, thighs the size of hams, I just don't get it. Why now, probably because they wont see me for 3 months, but most of the guys doing this have a class with me next semester, so they really arn't gonna be missing me for long. I wish just for once I could read a guys mind and just know what he was thinking, this whole guessing thing is just to much for me. I'm exhausted, I spend all day doing homework, and I end up talking to guys online for ever. I was talking to this one guy until 6 in the morning this morning, I went to sleep until 1. I really am just going crazy. I need to stop.

Fee

Oh wow. I am so tired it is not even funny. I got 3 hours of sleep this morning, and that is what I'm running on. Not to mention I was actually active yesterday and today so my energy is sapped. I feel like someone threw rocks at me. Not to mention the fact that my mental state is that of a stressed college stundent of whom guys have started to take an interest in now a week before summer when I'm stressed to hell and not needing distractions from my already packed schedule. My shoulders have built up so much stress it's hard to look up, and my lower back feels like a hammer has happily been pounding away at it. I am going crazy, yet I can still stop and say hey guess what I'm tired. I spent the night last night with a bunch of guy friends, two of which I kissed yes kissed last night both of them. I know I'm weird. I also was at their dorm room until 5 freekin 30 in the morning then I walked to my room (the sun was coming up) and passed out for a whole 3 hours before getting up to go to my first class, followed by a day of running from class to class, and guess what else. I havent eaten anything but packets of honey, two granola bars, a handful of cheerios, and a few crackers. I feel like my stomache is an empty pit that hasn't been filled in years. Not to mention I've now been doing homework for four straight hours with no breaks and just sitting here drawing on a piece of paper. I am so tired, yet I can't go to bed until I finish my homework because it's due tomarrow and if I don't finish it I'm sqrewed becasue we cant hand it in late at all because its summer. I just need to sleep, and I cant and that sucks!

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